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Monday, June 21, 2010
Yesterday night was really a bad night for me. I watched a anime show and finished at 12plus and went to sleep. I don't know when but i suddenly feel so empty inside my heart and listen to songs. Then, i think of my ex-gf rachel and my heart hurts badly and could not go to sleep. Although i told her we could be "close friends" but yesterday in my mind i feel like iam going to die without her. This is the first time i feel so much for a girl, probably because we had been together for a week but the truth is i love her so much that i can't let her worry. I talk to her today, although it's not face to face but i feel so relieved. I finally had the guts to tell her how i feel for her but she can't go out with me, this really hurts through my heart. I know that iam selfish because i didn't really think of her. Even so, i told her everything. Iam not sure how she truly feel about me because she leave the conversation right after i asked her how she feel about me now!!! Probably she's really busy with stuff or avoiding me. Either way i wait for her answer no matter how long it takes. That's what love is huh??? I'll try to focus on my exam today and hope that i can do well.Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Today is wednesday. I started school at 1pm in the afternoon, Mr Derek is not very happy today because a lot of us did not finish our T-shirt design and didn't study the chapters. So he give us a break of 1 hour to read chap 1 to 10 and then later he will give questions and those students who do not know how to answer will be send out of class immediately. So the class is very quiet now but to tell the truth who will really read??? He already mark the attendance so if he send us out i don't think there's any difference huh??? Probably not but our own sake we should study and try to remember as much as we can. I think that's the reason we are in school now, for me i don't really like to study but if get send out it will be a waste of time. I suppose a lot of people would get send out haizz~~~ I wonder if any of my friends would get send out even though they study very hard!!! It's not easy but as long we study hard enough i think it will be okay... That's all for now!!! ~~~Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Today is wednesday. Started school in the afternoon at 1pm, learning mfdi in short term. What have i learnt today let's see ermm, yup our teacher Mr Derek teaches us more of the skills used in photoshop. But he teaches in such a fast speed so i can't really catch what he was sayin haha!!! Although he teaches very fast, i can get some of the things he said because i wrote down. And not forgetting the assignment, he let those who haven't finished including me to finish up everything in half an hour. At around 3plus he let us have a toilet break for 5 mins but some of the classmates are late so they present their assignment to the whole class. The whole process was very funny because there is a girl call amirah keep shooting questions and lastly she was called up. She only had 4 of her own picture and a book that she took from the internet. There's seem like a lot of pages but of course she could not flip them... The lesson finished at around 5 if iam not wrong and reached home at about 5.40 or so~~~ Oh lastly although i and rachel break up, we still remain as "close friends". That's good for both of us i suppose and okay that's all for today!!! ~~~ :)Monday, May 10, 2010
Early morning, i feel damn restless today. I really have no idea what will happen to me if i had to break up with her??? I don't even know what should i do now??? I can't possibly concentrate on my work today after what happen yesterday. Can't possibly treat it as nothing had happened if i could i will go on my daily life without her but i truly can't!!! Beside my parents and sis, she is the most important person in my life so i am both panicking and fear for her. If she leave this school, i will surely changed to a person that is different from before i can guaranteed that... Really hope her mum does not change her school. Haizz... iam really having a headache just thinking about it!!!!!!!!! I really do not wished to break up with her!!!!!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHHHHHIt's monday and the start of a new week again. School started at 8.30 today and it's pe in the first period. Today our pe teacher is not here so our class is without a teacher and so the other pe teacher is taking care of our class and her own too. Our class have a girl by the name Eleanor, she thought she's so clever by taking our name on a piece of paper. My gf is late because she is finding her ez-link card that she thought she had lost it and reached at around 9. But you know what, when the other pe teacher found out that she is taking down name, she is very angry and scolded her for making her own decision. Had a break at 10 and starts another class at 10.30am, Mr peter's class. He teaches internet fundamentals and it's kind of boring because it is just typing text. Although it can be tiring but in order to pass Nitec we had to learn. We had lunch at 12 and started some team-building game at around 1. It's kind of fun because it is our whole class that participates and compete with the other class. We split up into 3 groups in our own class and have some games. And after that it is the whole class who needs to participate in the other games because it is class vs class. We lost a narrow point to the other class but the whole process is interesting and fun. Our class had some really very hyperactive classmates who is very enthusiastic about the game and almost shouting all the way!!! It ends at around 4 plus and we went home. I send my gf back and went back later. Reached home at about 5.30 and rested after that. I chatted with my gf at around 8plus and suddenly she told me that her mum knew about our relationship together. I was shocked and dumbfounded, all i could think of is how the hell did her mum know??? She told me afterwards that probably her mum "kaypo" on her laptop and see it. The real reason remain unknown, Iam truly afraid that we will just break up like this!!! I do not know how i can live without her around truly scared!!! That is all for today. ~~~ I will tell more tomorrow...
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Today is Sunday and the last day of this week. Let's start with the morning, i learned wushu at 10am and finished at 12pm. As usual i have training from 10 to 11plus. After that i learnt some method of wushu called nan quan. It's a very strong and powerful strike that is very difficult to train. I reached home at around 12.50pm and i wanted to study. But i had lunch first before i study and do my stuff. Switched on my computer too and listened to music while studying~~~ Although i looked like iam studying but i can't concentrate as i was thinking of my girlfriend haizz.... i rested at around 5plus and went to my sis room to chat for a while. While we were chatting, we also played with bubbles. It was a very cool sight when my sis put the bubbles near the fan and let it blow out. Let's talk about dinner then, started at around 7 and watched show from 7.30 till 8.30pm. After the tv show, my sis and i decided to watched a movie named Avatar. I just finished watching at around 11.15 and tomorrow morning i still have school at 8.30 but i will reach at 8 though to see my gf. That's all for today!!! ~~~~Saturday, May 8, 2010
Today is Saturday so of course there's no school so i woke up later than usual. When i woke up it's already 10.35 in the morning so i quickly got up. Ate my breakfast and watch cartoon from 10.40 to 11am. After the show i watched, i used my computer to do some stuff until 2plus in the afternoon. Since my sis does not have tution today, she stayed at home too. I switched on my msn and waited patiently for my gf to go online so tat i can chat wif her. Finally she reached home and came online at around 3.05. I was thrilled when i see her online so i started to chat with her!!! Around 3.30 i told her that i need to go for wushu at 4pm but she asked me to stay and chat with her because she is very bored. Although i need to go for wushu but it's raining outside and i don't feel like going too so i decided to stay and accompany her. She was very delighted when she see that iam not going. I chatted with her till around 4plus but i suddenly feel very tired so i told her i need to rest a while. I rest till 5.10 and my parents are already home, they knew that i didn't go for wushu. As most of you guys should know that tomorrow is Mother's Day so yesterday night me,my dad and sis decided to make a spread of meal for my beloved mum who is always so willing to make sacrifice for both of us. We ate dinner at around 6 and it was so delicious. Although i didn't helped with the food, i helped my dad to carry the table, we started eating and finished at around 7pm. Together with my sis, we watched a show at channel U and Spy kids in channel 5. The show finishes at around 9.30 and therefore i have nothing to do. Since my gf is out at her grandma's house, i can't call her or msg her because her mum do not allowed her to chat on the phone. She can't msg too because she's afraid she will used too much of her prepaid card. Although it's her choice or should i say she's afraid get scolded by her mum for using her prepaid card until it's finished. Why i say so it's because she had a prepaid card before too but she used up all in two weeks and get scolded by her mum for using up too quickly. I had no choice but to follow her words so i can't msg her. Haizz... tomorrow morning i need to go for wushu again from 10 until 12. I will meet my gf on mon in the school that we both study in. I suppose that's all for today~~~